Some of my friends and family members are aware. I struggle with drinking water and am often dehydrated. I have attributed this to my previous homeless lifestyle. I have experienced having a Kidney stone twice. The first time was in 2007 and the second in 2012. The first time I was able to pass the stone on my own. The second time I need medical intervention to help the process. Recently a family member was diagnosed with kidney stones. Prior to that, my kidney had been hurting frequently and I had headaches from dehydration almost daily. I had been thinking about a water challenge, but my loved one being diagnosed inspired me to action. I plan to share on my blog as I go through the water challenge. I know previously I have given up coffee for Lent and tried to focus on drinking water. Please join me in the water challenge. Feel free to comment post pictures.
According to Dictionary.com real means ” Truth, existing or occurring as fact.” Since childhood. I have believed in the existence of God. As I have stumbled through Christianity there has been days of doubts. In the midst of doubts, I have extraordinary days where I can not deny the present of God. At church the pastor mentioned God is just as real as other invisible concepts we accept such as gravity. No one argues the existence of gravity.
I am not an apologist so I can not defend my belief. I hope you believe, but I won’t try to convince you. I would just tell as the great line from X files the Truth is out there somewhere. Which means God is out there somewhere.
I have been tagged again on Facebook to spread the gospel. It made me think about this blog. I wanted to share but didn’t originally plan to share as much regarding my personal relationship with God, but those posts have received the most “Likes”. I As I previously stated I have not had issues with the existence of God. My struggle comes at the point, does God really know my name. Does God specifically care about my existence? There is a difference between Real and Relationship. To believe something is real only requires a temporary relationship. The chair I am currently sitting is real but once I leave this location. The chair won’t matter to me anymore. God is omnipresent so I can’t leave His presence. Unlike the chair, God has no boundaries. As I stumble through Christianity and go from religion to spirituality. God is using Facebook, to talk to me. I have been trying to avoid my relationship with God becoming intimate. Yet I am challenged to defend my belief in God’s existence. It is interesting I visited with a homeless friend and for a second I wonder, how is God Real if this person is homeless. Then I realized despite a lack of shelter, the person was in good health and spirits. The individual’s mental and physical health is evidence that God is real and cares. I do believe this person homeless experience just like some of mine is the person’s own fault. I believe God is using the experience to teach a lesson, jut like the God challenge on Facebook. God is Real, he is even on Facebook. :)
God is Real was easy. I believe in His existence. God is Good, even if He was just Good Orderly Direction. At one point in my spiritual journey, He was. God is Faithful that is personal. It requires a relationship. Belief does not require a relationship. Belief is enough to believe God is Real, and God is Good. I thought about this and realized God has faithful woken me up every day.
It’s easy to say God is good especially during tax refund season. When the direct deposit hits earlier than expected. With financial blessings, God is good is always my first response. On the days when there is 2 cents in my bank account or NSF, I am the first to assume God has forgotten about me. I realized when I can’t say God is Good due to financial blessings. I can give God credit for being God for keeping me from seen and unseen dangers. Being chronically homeless in my life I am. He has protected me from a lot of dangers. During a 90 day period. We lived with a crack addict, I assumed the person was just an alcoholic. We lived with a family we barely knew from church. We lived with a person who had been found guilty of child molestation. I had no idea at the time.
Despite my emotions, I have to confess God is Good. He has proven it to many times, Whether it is manifest through financial blessings, physical health, mental health. As the seniors say, I woke this morning with a portion of health, strength and in my right mind.
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When I was a little girl, my grandfather would read the bible to me. I remember him reading the story of Job. I like Job even thought the story seemed depressing. Job lost everything except for his mind, his life, and wife. When Job lost his children, his livestock, and health, he still praised God. In 2003, my favorite song was Praise is what I do. In reality, Praise is not what I do. I murmur and complain. I know I would not be strong as Job. In my situation now I tell the bill collectors I have lost everything but my mind and my health. Some days I think it would be easier to lose my mind. Then I would not have to feel guilty about the financial mess I am in.
Being a person who murmurs and complains, when I was diagnosed with alcoholism my thoughts soon turned to why me. When the engine blew in my car while I was homeless in Atlanta. I asked God why.
This summer I was fired from job number three this year. Last month I lost my apartment that I considered my home. I finally accepted that I could not afford to keep my car. My song lately has been I need you now. I know my situation is not that bad. I still have my health, my mind, my children and when I left my apartment this time I was able to get my belongings.
After a period, God blessed Job with even more than he had when Job lost everything. My friend shared with me she felt I would be like Job, that the latter part of my life would be the greater.
I have been following the MY Space case. I live near the area where Lori Drew and Megan Meier lived. Drew and her family moved away following Megan’s death. Drew created a fake MySpace account to humiliate Megan. Drew pretended to be a boy( Josh) interested in Megan. When Josh began to say negative things to Megan and eventually ended the relationship. The message that sent prompted Megan to end her life was “The world would be a better place without you.” Megan ended her life.
In the Bible, there are many warning about being careful about what you say. The power of life and death is in the tongue. The MySpace case is an extreme example of how the tongue ( what was said affected life and death).
James 3:5 Likewise the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole person, sets the whole course of his life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell.
Luke 6:45 NIV ” The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and the evil man brings evil stored up in his heart. For out of the overflow of his heart his mouth speaks
I am convicted as I write this about how my words have hurt my family.